Corona Reflections
In this pandemic and today in particular, I just took a minute to observe how I feel about my daily schedule and routine. Obviously this is from my vantage point (and likely not the same experience as many out there), but I feel that for the first time in a long while (while in the same job that I've been looking to leave), I actually am having the autonomy, lifestyle, and pace (with respect to not having a commute) that I asked for and put out to the universe. I did not know it'd deliver in this way, but I'm finding there are many intentional things I can do and change "in real time" both personally and in parenting that are happening right now.
And frankly, I'm grateful for it because I'm moving with it and seeing it without the stress of my long commute and the noise from the external world. I get this opportunity to "see" a little bit of what my kids are going through and what they need and I can try each day to alter or help it in some way. It's a gift. Let's also talk about pace. We all can share what we don't want which I did for a long while say the things I don't want. I don't feel the "push" right now that I had before. I just move through the day altering stuff as I go and getting to what I can but not really worrying about if it's all going to get done. The push is out of it. And without the pressures of me having a long commute into the city, actually being with my husband all of us in the same house has improved my marriage a lot (I know this group isn't about that), but we aren't fighting as much at all. Sure we are living in chaos, but we’re trying different things and working through it. We are staying safe and doing what we can with the current situation. I know for many, this situation is bringing up lots of uncomfortable things but I will say if you strip down your job, your title, your things, your social calendar etc, and just look at the beings in your household, you'll discover your own peace. Just for today, it was neat for me to observe my own peace. My own autonomy in my job right now (which is just for now), my own happiness of balance. My own view of how no routine is routine, and there will be good days and bad days but we're all human. It was just with simple eyes. Compassion. Empathy. Trust in the upgrade that is coming. Faith that there’s a higher order for what is next. And ready for the seeds to continue to grow when it’s time.
